Gratitude August 29, 2022

Today I’m grateful for tears during my morning meditation. I found myself thinking of my sons and how much I love them and how proud I am of them. These are tears of love and pride soaking my handkerchief. And relief that we have gotten through the tough times to this peaceful place.

I’m grateful for late summer ease. The garden in its fullness. Neighborhood children playing ball and riding bikes, school still a couple weeks off. Friends taking off for Burning Man. Early apples literally falling from the trees. Grapes coming into ripeness. Animals fattening themselves for fall & winter. Birds & squirrels harvesting sunflower seeds and stashing walnuts.

I’m grateful for the lovely dinner with my son Gabe and his partner Madison. And how sweet it was to have them cook for us. A delicious meal made even more delicious by the love that was shared. I’m grateful for what I learn from them. And I’m grateful to talk about the goofy odd performances that we all enjoy.

I’m grateful to be willing to look at my fear over finances even though I know I have enough money. To see how this fear drives me to consume more and live in denial. I resist the compulsion, but it’s there. I want to find a way to live in balance with my finances without fear and denial driving the process.

I’m willing to honestly look at my finances today. To open all our bank accounts and debit accounts and work toward balancing things. To be honest with myself and my partner Jay.